Hey everyone...I know, I know. I am a little late with starting my blogs. The important thing right now is that I am finally here! This is going to help so much. I am normally not very open about my weight gain/loss history, but this forum helps me get it all out there.
Hmmm...let's see. Where do I begin? For most of my life, I have always been fit. I was never a skinny girl, but I would say I had a nice, fit body. I guess my weigh gain history began about 9 years ago. In fact, I know it was Dec. 4, 1999- the day my dad passed away. That by far was the most difficult thing I have had to deal with in my 37 years so far. I suppose, no, I know I still deal with that each day, and over the course of 9 years, I gained about 10 pounds per year. Yes-that's what I said. You do the math. Currently, I am 90 pounds overweight. Easy to put on, hard to take off. Many people may not realize that I am extremely insecure, and that has to do a lot with the way I look. I know I am smart and good at what I do, but the outer appearance always messes with me...I hate it!
I have to admit that I like to be in control of things. I wouldn't say I am overly obsessive about it, but I work hard to be organized in just about every aspect of my life...except my weight. I'm completely out of control in that area. I've tried many things on this journey- low carb, WW, Alli (don't recommend unless you want to wear a diaper), green tea supplements, etc. This time, I finally feel like I am going to be successful.
I achieved two of my goals for this week- each day I stayed within 1200-1500 daily calories. I also wrote down everything I ate in a journal I am keeping now. The exercise goal- not there yet. I did order a Pilates machine from QVC (oh yeah, the Q baby!). I finally figured out how to assemble the whole thing, and did my first set of exercises last night. I am a little sore this morning, but that's a good thing. My goal is to do that at least 3 times a week. I also would like to walk around the neighborhood a couple of days a week with the hubs and my two beagles.
Anyway, I know this is very long, but like Anne, I had to get it out. I feel much better now! I look forward to sharing more with you all on this journey. Talk to you later!
Thanks for sharing your story. Oh my gosh! You are in my head! I know what you mean about the esteem (or lack of)...people tell me I'm so accomplished, but the only thing I see is my failure to be healthy. (I started to say thin, but I really don't want to be "thin.")
ReplyDeleteThanks for the tip about Alli. I bought some but haven't tried it. Was afraid to w/ my stomach issues. Now I'm glad I didn't.
Operation Bikini has been a life saver for me already. We'll talk to Marie(1) and get you on to post directly. Right now all you can do is comment...
Hi Leigh2! So glad to see you on here. And I think Marie has made it possible for you to post on the main O.B.2009.
ReplyDeleteWe all have a story, don't we? I first must say that I think your outer appearance is a good reflection of your inner self - you are beautiful on the outside just like you are on the inside. And I'm not blowing smoke either. I can relate to those feelings too - things are great on the inside but not always on the outside. And when I see a picture of myself - yikes!
Know that we are all here for you (and each other) - I am proud of you for journaling your food and starting your pilates exercises. Think of the rock hard abs you will have in no time!